Friday, May 11, 2012
Tuesday, May 1, 2012
Being Bullied
It's been a long time since I've been bullied...
I have forgotten how hurtful it is
and how helpless one feels when being degraded and insulted
how you wish someone would stand up for you
and most painfully, how much you HOPE you would have stood up for yourself
Today I was indirectly bullied
Being repeatedly put down
Being wrongly accused
Being left standing there faking a stupid smile while inside you just felt like punching the bully...
I guess no matter how much I have grown up
or how much I thought I was stronger and wiser to be able to defend yourself
In the end
I was bullied...
But whatever
They always say the Bullies are the ones with issues ..thus they will try to put people down to make themselves feel better...
So...I guess I have done good by letting that insulting hurtful A-hole feel better about himself....
Good Karma for the day I guess?? :DDD
Oh well, Tomorrow is another day...and It will be one NOT filled with bullies and A-holes:D
Stay Happy!!!!
I have forgotten how hurtful it is
and how helpless one feels when being degraded and insulted
how you wish someone would stand up for you
and most painfully, how much you HOPE you would have stood up for yourself
Today I was indirectly bullied
Being repeatedly put down
Being wrongly accused
Being left standing there faking a stupid smile while inside you just felt like punching the bully...
I guess no matter how much I have grown up
or how much I thought I was stronger and wiser to be able to defend yourself
In the end
I was bullied...
But whatever
They always say the Bullies are the ones with issues ..thus they will try to put people down to make themselves feel better...
So...I guess I have done good by letting that insulting hurtful A-hole feel better about himself....
Good Karma for the day I guess?? :DDD
Oh well, Tomorrow is another day...and It will be one NOT filled with bullies and A-holes:D
Stay Happy!!!!
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
Going back In TIME...
I want to return back in time
To a time where there were no worries, no responsibilities, no loneliness
Just only happiness, joy and freedom
So I got bitten by the 'how I wish I was a kid again' bug...
Been remembering how awesome my pre-adult years were
And If I had a chance to return back to a certain time...It would be my High School years.
Yeah I know...High school...ahhaha...a lot of people would not want to return to that era where zits and growing up kinda sucked ...but for me...It was the best of times
Where my family and friends were always there with me
Where fun and laughter filled my day....Everyday of the year...
And where learning about life hurts...yet It made me stronger and more appreciative of who I am now.
I miss home
I miss my friends
I miss the memories...
How I wish time would have just stopped then
Sigh...
Why did I want to grow up so fast when I was a kid!!! dang it...
Growing Up really sucks...
To a time where there were no worries, no responsibilities, no loneliness
Just only happiness, joy and freedom
Been remembering how awesome my pre-adult years were
And If I had a chance to return back to a certain time...It would be my High School years.
Yeah I know...High school...ahhaha...a lot of people would not want to return to that era where zits and growing up kinda sucked ...but for me...It was the best of times
Where my family and friends were always there with me
Where fun and laughter filled my day....Everyday of the year...
And where learning about life hurts...yet It made me stronger and more appreciative of who I am now.
I miss home
I miss my friends
I miss the memories...
How I wish time would have just stopped then
Sigh...
Why did I want to grow up so fast when I was a kid!!! dang it...
Growing Up really sucks...
Saturday, April 14, 2012
Why 4minute??
Ok i'm a kpop fan...and I love kpop to bits...I don't understand korean,but who says you would need to understand the lyrics to enjoy the song...yes lyrics are the icing on the cake...but what the heck, I'm happy enough with the deliciously good cake:D
I don't really blog about kpop BUT I just got to rant about something k-pop-ie...So I'm gonna talk about 4 minute.
They are the cool girl group who debuted strong,fierce and unique years ago...yet, they've just been stagnant all these years,being just THERE in the k-pop industry.....and until now...the only girl i know from that group is freaking Hyuna...the others...are just there at the background.
Their other label mates under CUBE like B2ST and A-pink (I know, kpop grp names are just always weird...) have done a great job so far and have made a name for themselves in k-pop land...but WHY...oh WHYYYYYYYYY must they promote only ONE member of 4minute like crazy and ignore the other 4!!!Like Hyuna is having 70% of the face time in their new released music video "volume up"...
All i see is her face...then boom she's touching her body...then flash to another member *oh...ok i'm guessing this member is...* then BOOM...to hyuna again...*wait what, this is not even her singing part...ok nvm...*....then flash to another member *oohoooh i know this member,she's damn good at singing...oh gawd she's pretty...she is so..* Boom ...FREAKING HYUNA AGAIN!!!! WTF!!!
seriously...I'm not a big fan of 4minute ,yet their new song is quite good and catchy...but oh hack why must they be soooo "hyuna-fied".??
I just feel so bad for the other members of the group...I mean they are as talented,have great personalities and they are pretty too...but why must they always show Hyuna!!! (I don't HATE her,but she is WAYYY too overrated...yes she is pretty , really good in variety shows and is sexy....but why is she always in my face touching her body and is TRYING to be SOOOO slutty...*and she is not as good a singer or rapper compared to the others:( *)...
Ohhh...I just got to say that I'm getting so sick and tired when k-pop groups try to promote only ONE member...and they keep on shoving them into your face till you get so sick of them...and then this weird hatred towards that supposedly "face of the group" member burns like wild fire...GAH
Okie...I'm done bitching on Hyuna...hehe, I still Like her...but 4minute really is not a GROUP to me...it's just 'Hyuna and 4 others that are there who sings and dance but heck I don't remember their names' kinda thing...oh well:)
seeeeeeeee...even in the pictures Hyuna is always in the middle=_=...but damn I love their fashion:P
I don't really blog about kpop BUT I just got to rant about something k-pop-ie...So I'm gonna talk about 4 minute.
They are the cool girl group who debuted strong,fierce and unique years ago...yet, they've just been stagnant all these years,being just THERE in the k-pop industry.....and until now...the only girl i know from that group is freaking Hyuna...the others...are just there at the background.
Their other label mates under CUBE like B2ST and A-pink (I know, kpop grp names are just always weird...) have done a great job so far and have made a name for themselves in k-pop land...but WHY...oh WHYYYYYYYYY must they promote only ONE member of 4minute like crazy and ignore the other 4!!!Like Hyuna is having 70% of the face time in their new released music video "volume up"...
All i see is her face...then boom she's touching her body...then flash to another member *oh...ok i'm guessing this member is...* then BOOM...to hyuna again...*wait what, this is not even her singing part...ok nvm...*....then flash to another member *oohoooh i know this member,she's damn good at singing...oh gawd she's pretty...she is so..* Boom ...FREAKING HYUNA AGAIN!!!! WTF!!!
seriously...I'm not a big fan of 4minute ,yet their new song is quite good and catchy...but oh hack why must they be soooo "hyuna-fied".??
I just feel so bad for the other members of the group...I mean they are as talented,have great personalities and they are pretty too...but why must they always show Hyuna!!! (I don't HATE her,but she is WAYYY too overrated...yes she is pretty , really good in variety shows and is sexy....but why is she always in my face touching her body and is TRYING to be SOOOO slutty...*and she is not as good a singer or rapper compared to the others:( *)...
Ohhh...I just got to say that I'm getting so sick and tired when k-pop groups try to promote only ONE member...and they keep on shoving them into your face till you get so sick of them...and then this weird hatred towards that supposedly "face of the group" member burns like wild fire...GAH
Okie...I'm done bitching on Hyuna...hehe, I still Like her...but 4minute really is not a GROUP to me...it's just 'Hyuna and 4 others that are there who sings and dance but heck I don't remember their names' kinda thing...oh well:)
seeeeeeeee...even in the pictures Hyuna is always in the middle=_=...but damn I love their fashion:P
My Rant to those B****
To the bitches who con me and stole my wallet in Barcelona...
Who jammed the ticket machine and then acted to help me...
Who kept on pushing me back to the door whenever I tried to get out...
Who then prayed on my trust towards you since YOU bitches seemed like you genuinely were trying to help me...
Who then pulled my bag and dug my wallet out...
Who then freaking run away like some headless chickens when I finally pulled my bag towards me when I felt something was wrong...
F*CK you !!!! Freaking F*ck YOU!!!!...Barcelona is a WONDERFUL city and I LOVED it...but thanks to you stupid bitches and con freaks...It now holds an awful memory of ME LOSING MY THINGS TO YOU BITCHES!!!
It's not the money that you bitches DON"T deserve but yet HAPPILY STOLE that made me furious ...But the lost of That freaking wallet that you will NOT appreciate and then throw away after you clear off my cash makes me want to just punch you in your bitch face.
IT was a freaking gift from my best friends...which I had used everyday for more than 2 years now...and IN it are pictures, good luck charms and souvenirs that my Friends and Family gave me!!!!...Why can't you BITCHES had at least thrown my wallet after you dig what you wanted from it ,somewhere near the metro SOOOO I can AT LEAST get those things back!!!
Freaking bitches...I hope Karma will visit you one day...and see how it feels like when you lose something important...
but...i guess I was stupid to let my guard down and TRUST nice looking middle age ladies like you 2 bitches...who seemed so convincing that you actually CARED !!!! F*CKing bitches!!!
yet...THANK YOU for not getting to my passport and camera...I guess you 2 bitches were too SLOW to get to those things huh...
sigh...ok my rant is done...at least now I know pick-pocketing can happen anywhere,at any time, and by anyone....and that you can NOT trust anyone really....
The first time someone tried to steal from me was just a day before those bitches stole my wallet, but she failed because I reacted more quickly, thus she just ran off...but the 2nd time...sigh, I guess I was tired, and it was early in the morning AND being stuck at the metro machine SEEMED normal...and like hack!!! how smart are they to jam the machine...and stupid me trusted those bitches...my nice wallet was stolen in just that few seconds of confusion and distraction....T_T
Oh well...time to get a new wallet....and may you Romani Barcelona pickpocket bitches one day be caught....or just trip and fall WHILE you're running away with Another s' wallet and smash your faces on the floor and break your freaking noses ...or just crack your skull....
*sorry to be so aggressive in this post...but I never hated any Bitches this much before;)*
Who jammed the ticket machine and then acted to help me...
Who kept on pushing me back to the door whenever I tried to get out...
Who then prayed on my trust towards you since YOU bitches seemed like you genuinely were trying to help me...
Who then pulled my bag and dug my wallet out...
Who then freaking run away like some headless chickens when I finally pulled my bag towards me when I felt something was wrong...
F*CK you !!!! Freaking F*ck YOU!!!!...Barcelona is a WONDERFUL city and I LOVED it...but thanks to you stupid bitches and con freaks...It now holds an awful memory of ME LOSING MY THINGS TO YOU BITCHES!!!
It's not the money that you bitches DON"T deserve but yet HAPPILY STOLE that made me furious ...But the lost of That freaking wallet that you will NOT appreciate and then throw away after you clear off my cash makes me want to just punch you in your bitch face.
IT was a freaking gift from my best friends...which I had used everyday for more than 2 years now...and IN it are pictures, good luck charms and souvenirs that my Friends and Family gave me!!!!...Why can't you BITCHES had at least thrown my wallet after you dig what you wanted from it ,somewhere near the metro SOOOO I can AT LEAST get those things back!!!
Freaking bitches...I hope Karma will visit you one day...and see how it feels like when you lose something important...
but...i guess I was stupid to let my guard down and TRUST nice looking middle age ladies like you 2 bitches...who seemed so convincing that you actually CARED !!!! F*CKing bitches!!!
yet...THANK YOU for not getting to my passport and camera...I guess you 2 bitches were too SLOW to get to those things huh...
sigh...ok my rant is done...at least now I know pick-pocketing can happen anywhere,at any time, and by anyone....and that you can NOT trust anyone really....
The first time someone tried to steal from me was just a day before those bitches stole my wallet, but she failed because I reacted more quickly, thus she just ran off...but the 2nd time...sigh, I guess I was tired, and it was early in the morning AND being stuck at the metro machine SEEMED normal...and like hack!!! how smart are they to jam the machine...and stupid me trusted those bitches...my nice wallet was stolen in just that few seconds of confusion and distraction....T_T
Oh well...time to get a new wallet....and may you Romani Barcelona pickpocket bitches one day be caught....or just trip and fall WHILE you're running away with Another s' wallet and smash your faces on the floor and break your freaking noses ...or just crack your skull....
*sorry to be so aggressive in this post...but I never hated any Bitches this much before;)*
Friday, April 13, 2012
WoRds...
The easiest way to hurt someone is not by physical pain...but by emotional pain...and one of the easiest way to inflict that pain is by Words.
You can just bring apart someone's world down...with just one hurtful comment...a Few words that you said carelessly and just laugh it away would make another person's heart burn with pain.
So please do not just utter out a comment and say: 'I'm just joking'...and then just put on your stupid smiling face and move on...because It does hurt...no matter if you really meant it, or you just said it for the hack of it...every word that comes out from your mouth is from YOU, which means you DO mean it in a way.
What makes it worse is that after someone is hurt by your comment, they must suck it up and put on the 'ok just laugh it off, smile and not bother about it' face to not make YOU feel like a damn prick...but really, deep inside...it just crushes them...each hurtful word being echoed in their heads...again and again...
Words do hurt...so please think before you say anything...
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
Starting of a new chapter
6 months....
that's how long I've been stressed out from exam...
Never in my life have I felt so much pressure...and so much emotions that engulfed me during those few months...anxiety,depression,confusion,anger and distress..... almost everyday for that 6 months...I've felt that way...
So many times I have questioned myself...am I good enough...what am I doing here....what the hell is all this pain I'm feeling...and....Do I deserve to be here..... In summary it was HELL during those times...
I've never been the smartest...or NEVER ever been the best at what I do for that matter......and yet I'm here pursuing something so difficult...so challenging........haha....I still can't believe I'm still SURVIVING this course....
Well...all the emo-ness aside...I have survived yet again....Pain,Failure,Tears....It was horrible...but at least it is all over...and a new challenge lies ahead again....
YEAH...now I can finally stop posting emo post and move on to happier post....
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