Looking back~~~

Met up with my 3 best friends yesterday...and we gossiped,talked, played and laughed none stop for 7 hours...we went from one cafe to another...and ate alot too....tiring huh....hahahaha

It has been over 6 months since ALL 4 of us actually can meet up all at once at the same time...everyones was busy with their own things...so it was a very precious gathering~~~


We 4 crazy gals had been close friends since form 4...and unexpectedly, we all formed our own group called "the 4 so's"...4 so's????well, thats because we all have a very distinct characterisic~~~we have, so fatty, so skinny, so shorty/blakey and me so whitey...lame huh...hahaha

I am not sure how we 4 came to form this group...but all I know is that we were one CRAZY girl group...quite scary I think...
back in our highschool days...we did SO MANY 'illegal' things in our school...we were just one FUN and HYPER group...who was always high on something...:P
we always went to the 'forbidden' 7th floor to chill, we did so many weird polls and quetionaires on our classmates, we were gossip diggers , we had our 'bento thursdays' which was freaking fun, we had so many memories that we thought was lame that time, but precious now....

I miss my highschool days so much...It was tough sometimes...but It was so free and fun...
Since I studied in a Chinese school where EVERTHING was in chinese...thus we had SPM classes 2 times a week at night for 3 hours after our normal classes....omg it was SOOOOOO tiring...we needed to stay in school the whole day (from 7am till 9pm)for the SPM classes....BUT, IT WAS FUN!!!! because we stayed back till other teachers and students went home,so the school was EMPTY...so we could do so many crazy stuff...haha...can't stop giggling when I think back of all the outrageous things we done(to protect my image, I shall not further explain what I have done in the past~~~)


Yesterday was a great day,We looked back at old photos and videos together...and OH MY GAWD....I can't belive what stupid and crazy stuff I did back then...I think I was one of the craziest out of the other galz....should I be proud of that????:P
but It was so funny...

Thanks to my highschool craziest for the SUPER AWESOME memories!!!I ♥♥♥ you guys !!!

..............................................but..............

IT had only been 3 years since I left highschool...and sadly I'm not as fun as that time...sometimes I wonder why I became so 'old' so fast...and not having as much fun as I could out of life~~~boring sharon boring me...sigh~~~

Great memories, Great times....and I miss that SOOOOOO much...but that was a PAST chapter of my life...no matter how hard i miss that...it will only stay in my deepest,safest tresure box in my memories~~~and now I'm living a new chapter...which is the IMU chapter(a very long chapter indeed)...and this chapter aint that bad...its SO MUCH MORE stressful...but it's THE chapter where I mature and learn the most...It started off as a crappy chapter but later on the 'story' really kicked in and it turned into an AWESOME chapter ~~~

♥♥♥LIFE~~~~~~~

What ifs and Dreams~~~ part 1

Why do you want to be a doctor???
This is one of the most asked question like ever!!!!
but Seriously...I DON"T KNOW...
The standard and MOST common answer will be:
1)It was a childhood dream of mine
2)Someone i know have or had an illness and i want to cure them
3)I want to save lives

but none of the above applies to me...well maybe the 3rd one,kind of...
I sound so evil right now huh~~~~evil medical student!!!

I guess you can call it a calling...
I suddenly wanted to do Medicine when I was in college,I don't know why but I suddenly had this passion for it...a very strong burning passion for it...not sure why...but what i know is, i entered this course not only to cure other people, but most importantly to cure me ...

I wanted to be strong, to be brave, to be bold, to be confident...and being in the medical field, i KNOW that I will be pushed to be all of these~~~I wanted to learn and mature faster, wanted to not be an introvert(yes i was, believe it or not),wanted to not be selfish and care for another, and most importantly, wanted to do something with my life that I will be proud of...no matter how hard or tough its going to be...



Well, so I just suddenly started thinking yesterday....
what IF i was not a medical student...what other things then i shall pursue???...
hhhmmmmmmmmmmmmm......lets see~~~~


Failed Dreams and what ifs:

1)Pianist/Musician


Seriously, who NEVER wanted to be a musician before!!!
I love music,and i enjoy playing the piano a lot,but I regret big time when i stopped my piano lessons when I was eleven at grade 3. Why did i stop???Well I had this piano teacher for 2 years which i really liked,i learned super fast from him because he was funny and very nice, but then he resigned from the music center i go to and went overseas to further his music career.
After that i had a new teacher, an uptight,super prideful b*tch who always yelled at me...so i stopped...then started again one year later with a new teacher...oh god...that teacher sucked big time too, he is really young and is not so experienced ; he was so boring and jokeless...and most importantly he yelled crazily at me till i cried before my grade 3 piano exams...after I passed my grade 3 exam, i straight away dropped piano...
and then i started again in form 4 where i learned from my school's music teacher and continued till I entered IMU...I only finished grade 6...sad right

but when I was in form 4, a japanese drama called NODAME CANTABILE made me WANT to be a pianist SOOOOOOOOO badly.The drama revolves around music students in a music school,and the pieces they play in the drama were so beautiful and touching...and...it seems so cool being in a music school!!!! I wanted to be like those ppl in the drama!!!


and and and~~~~
My form 4 music teacher brought us to KLCC to see the MPO(malaysian philharmonic orchestra)feat. two piano solos....wow...it was beautiful, It was my first time loving the piano and music soooo much...

I really planned to faster start piano during form 4 and finish my diploma before I was form 6 then enter a music school!!!!and live happily ever after as a pianist~~~~~~~crazy huh...but ....

reality striked....

I found that I was not gifted with the awesome talent to play piano,...and I CAN"T play by ear which made me realize i suck...and since I have not been playing the piano constantly my fingers are super stiff and slow...

so yeah...that dream of becoming a pianist sadly sinked...:(

(TO BE CONTINUED....)
What ifs and Dreams~~~ part 2 on its way~~~~~~~~~~~

Skies♥

I love Looking up at the skies...It makes me Happy and Calms me when I am sad...
Thank God for such an amazing creation...

Pictures I have taken over the years~~~


Skies from my Highschool window


East Coast Park Singapore


What i see everytime i drive to IMU:)


Beautiful skies after exams


Gloomy skies on my way for EOS3 ...funny how it reflects how i feel too:P


Jeju island,Korea


KL city


Kuching Sarawak,view from hotel


Hokkaido Japan City


Hokkaido sceneries


Sunrise from CF camp



Taiwan


Pulau Redang

SUPER ♥♥♥♥ Skies
Thanks for always making me happy:)

Unfairness or just bad luck

Hey, I just got back from my first ever roadtrip to Kluang ,Johor.
I'm super tired but the trip was awesome and so memorable...It was really great!!!
But I shall not blog about it in this post yet, but sadly I'm going to write a really EMO post...weird huh...but i will surely post about the crazy roadtrip nxt time...

Ok, so I was reliving my happy times in Kluang in my mind just now when i was about to sleep, smiling stupidly at myself and giggling unconsciously when suddenly the EMO bug bit me...my mind was suddenly filled with the times of sadness and regrets...the times when Life was just so unfair to me...times when I was at the wrong place at the wrong time and screwing everything up...times when I felt so small,useless and ugly...sigh...why is life such a b*tch...

I am not sure if I have super bad luck or if its karma that I always meet such unfair situations...I can't count the infinite times that when I try so hard, and wait so long for good and exciting things to happen to me...yet it never ever happens...and when IT does...I'm always too late or not even there to witness it...Countless times I've been placed in situation where I must put on a fake smile and act all happy and just go with the flow...and thousands of times when I never get what i want, what i dreamed of and just get super dissapointed with life again...


Yes this is part of life, life is NEVER easy, and NEVER EVER goes according with your plan...but, when i reflect back of what have happened in the past, I just feel so cursed, so UNFAIR of why I never got what i wanted, or why I never was good at 'TIMING'...


Life is awesome now but sometimes i still feel so leftout, so useless and so brave-less...I had become more courageous in facing life and just living it without the fake smiles and acts like the time back in my _______(can't be written out to protect secrecy...shhhhhhhhhh) days,and yes ,times now are filled with more laughter, more great memories and more superb awesome people...but yet...

But why...why must it always happen to me...why must I have such bad luck!!!!!
why why why why why!!!!!!!!!!!
for just once...why can't i be LUCKY!!!!!!

urghhss...my mind is soooo polluted with pointless sadness right now...I hate this...

New space again:)

Greetings~~~
I have started a new blog YET again....sigh...
this would be my 3rd blog so far...

I started bloggin while i was in form 3,and it was on myspace~~~
It was very disorganised and with super lots of post...thus i decided to start a new blog.
when i was in form 5, i changed to use blogspot(sharonyukihana)...and sadly all my post started to become very EMO and I only blogged when sad stuff happens...and that blog has been dead for soooooooo long now...almost a year maybe???

and now~~~~*drumroll*...
INTRODUCING......my new BLOG~~~~ SHARONSNOWFLAKES!!!!!!
yeah!!!yipeeee~~~weeeeee~~~~~~~

why Snowflakes??? well i wanted the name snowysharon but sadly it was taken...thus snowflakes is the closest name i wanted for my brandnew blog~~~

For my last blog "sharonyukihana", in japanese it means, yuki=snow, and hana=flower...thus snowflower was my blog's name...sadly lots of ppl didn't know japanese and could not remember the name...=_=''

so what is my facination with SNOW? why are all my blog adds related to snow~~~
well,I got to thank my highschool besties for that~~~ I got the nickname of 雪人(meaning snowman) because in mandarin 雪人 reads as 'xuenren', and sounding like my name Sharon...kinda lame right...plus I was kinda fair and 'round',so the nickname of 'snowman' fitted me quite well...hahhaha....*rollseyes*

SO....yeah....hopefully this blog will last,and not be left out in the cold like my other blogs (cold because my blog has snow in it...get it???cold and snow...urghhsss nevermind.....)

THUS, *drumroll**fireworks**thunderclap*

WELCOME TO MY NEW BLOG!!!!!its SNOWFLAKES TIME~~~~~~~