Chill Chill Chill

One more month till the killer exam...
where there is a 70% failing rate...
and I feel so unprepared that I constantly suffer from panic attacks...
Yet
I'm not studying....

What the hell am I doing to myself!!!

GAHHHH!!!!chill chill chill

Hopefully

I really hope everything turns out alright....
but... everything Is just against me...
and It seems so tiring and unfair...
Why must I go through so much challenges...

please let me be brave...
please stay strong~


You can do it...please remember...to be strong

Pls continue to be awesome....

Its been almost a month since I'm in UK...It was a whole mix of emotions I've experienced this few weeks...excited,anxious,scared,worried,happy,Crazy happy,depressed,rock bottom depressed,angry ect.~~~~ I feel like a crazy person with all this different emotions...

But it's really great...even though there were times i WISHED i was back in Malaysia with all the ppl I love...with no stress...with no worries...and with no problems trying to "fit in"...but I know this will make me stronger...and hopefully more independent.... to adapt with this new environment...and staying out by myself for the first time with no one to depend on....

Yeah it is tough...so many time I fell into the "OH MY GAWD!!!I"M SOOOOO DEPRESSED" mode...but luckily it just lasted for awhile before i got back to my "I"M GOING TO BE SO AWESOME!!!!" mode...

So yep....I'm enjoying myself...I have great friends here supporting me...did so many things I've never done before...and I've met so many great friendly ppl too~~~~

know it can only go downhill from now on(STUPID EXAM!!!!!)...but yeah...just be positive and have fun I guess~~~

sigh...such a random post=_=.... anyways....be happy and just DO IT!!!! lalalalala @_@

After every storm...the skies will surely clear up and be ever more beautiful ... So I know after every hardship...there's bound to be something great and spectacular waiting after the 'suffering'...:)

:)

Loneliness could be a pain in the ass
and
People might me cold and ignore you
and you will feel that no matter how hard you try ,
they will just keep on pushing you down...

but It will get better
coz no one is ever alone...ever
and happiness come to those who are willing to just put aside the "pity party" thinking and just keep on going....

so...
please continue to smile...
don't give up:D

Let's Do It!!!!!!!

It's a long road ahead...but let's make it a beautiful one:D

要学习。。。独立

很快就要开始新的生活。。。。
新的环境
新的考验
新的朋友
新的经验。。。

又怕又兴奋。。。不知将来的我会变的怎样。。。

希望，我会变得更坚强，更成熟。。。更快乐~~~

未来，我来了！！！
Let's GO!!!!!

Korean drama addiction and Jap-gender bender final decisions~~~

So...I think I've watch most of this season's k-drama(well at least tried one episode of each drama)...and I have to say there are A LOT of really good dramas~~~so many till I'm speed watching them...gah!!!my eyes hurt~~~so here are some dramas of the season that is great~~~

1)Scent of a Woman


When I heard about the storyline...which included cancer,poor girl and a rich guy...I was like "oh crap another I LOVE YOU BUT I HAVE CANCER SO I"M GOING TO DIE SAD LOVE drama"...but it stared one of my favourite actress Kim Sun Ah (who won my heart over in 'KIM SAM SOON', one of my favourite kdrama of all time)...thus I gave a drama a shot~~~

And my oh my...It was really good...It was really fresh, the cinematography so stunning, really great acting AND the story is interesting...But YES,it does involve having the main gal of the story having cancer(nope it's not the plot-twist...but it's what starts the story...so ya,thats new in k-drama land)~~~and what I love about the drama is the growth of each characters..espeacially kim sun ah's character...me love love love:D

2)Myung Wol the Spy


ahhh...a Spy drama....which is NOT my cup of tea (I watch dramas to relax...not to get all tense up on all the seriousness of politics/action/really really big plot twist)....so I never intended to watch it...but when It was labeled under the genre 'comedy/romance'...I just tried it and yep...it's definitely COMEDY:D

It is light,fluffy,romantic with the occasional action and seriousness(well it is a spy drama...)..but it is a good balance...its just all plain fun and the story itself is not to be taken seriously anyways (you watch it and you will know how rediculous the story is set up to be)...but it WORKS!!! its a really fresh idea for a drama and is definitely interesting~~~

3)Heartstrings/ You've fallen for me



Yep..this drama has two titles...the first being it's official english title..and the 2nd being the translation from the korean title....so confusing~~~~

So its a youth romance melodrama...staring park shinhye and yonghwa of CN-blue...which i LOVED from "you're beautiful"...so naturally i HAD to watch this drama..

The 1st 2 episodes of the drama was really promising...there's not much plot in it and it's basicly about the daily lifes and growth of characters who are studying in a music college...really simple yet sweet~~~and the bickering of the 2 main characters are so hilarious....

But once it reached the 4th episode...I was like forwarding speed watching the drama...why??coz there is REALLY NO substance in the story...i could just skip 20minutes of the episode...and yet the story has no development at ALL...and the story was really not 'focused', it tends to jump from one place to another with no flow and NO relevance to the main core storyline at all...and the characters started to lose their uniqueness and became a mess (they establish the characters in ep1-3...but once it reached ep 4, they just suddenly became a diffrent character)...

I really wanted to drop this drama when i reached ep 6....but I just gave it a chance...and OH YEAH...it did improve!!!!ep 7 & 8 finally had that feel of youth and romance and melodrama...it still was a drag in some parts but it improved a lot!!!(it seems the writers for ep7/8 changed...thank god for that!!!)

Not really a 'MUST WATCH FREAKING 100 TIMES I LOVE THIS FREAKING DRAMA' kind of drama...but its enjoyable and really fun to watch (plus it really has a light plot, so my brain don't feel so heavy after watching it~~~~lalala)

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Update on my last post about the japanese gender-bender drama...
1)Hana-kimi 2011 remake
* DROPPED-------sorry, I really can't stand it...It's just a really bad copy&paste version of the original...eventhough they changed it up abit...but still the change is not all that fun....:(

2) Ouran Highschool Host Club
*CONTINUE-----It is really fun and it does live up to it's manga/anime...really funny:D

3)Ikemen Desu Ne
*CONTINUE-----I really thought I was going to drop this drama..but I seem to enjoy it...well I do tend to skip over some parts because it was SOOOOO similar to the scenes from the Korean version....but aside from that...It is not that BAD of a remake...as the episodes goes...the characters and story are starting to be diffrent and actually quite enjoyable...surprisingly~~~I kinda like it:)

Add--->
4) IS~Otoko Demo Onna Demo Nai Sei~



So this is NOT a true gender-bender drama but the main actress does take on the role of both male and female....because in the drama, she/he is an IS (intersexual)...which means she/he was born with both male and female reproductive organs...thus having both male/female characteristics (but more to male...)

I love the actress Fukuda Saki...I think she takes on the character REALLY REALLY well...and compared to the other 3 actresses from the gender bender dramas...she is the MOST CONVINCING and pulls of being a male really well...

The drama is touching and it talks about IS (intersexual) which statisticly happens in 1 in 4000 births...which is alot but no drama so far has talked about this...so it's really interesting and does give us a look at how some with IS live with it.

Conclusion--->MUST WATCH

Overview: Japanese Gender-Bender Dramas

Spring has finally arrived~~~which means LOVE is in the air~~thus more 'romance' centered Japanese dramas!!!yooohoooo~~~~

So this season is the season of 'gender-benders' in Japan...meaning the main actress wears boy's clothes and disguises herself as a boy...and of cause she(or he) will fall in love with the main guy and the other guys will all fall for her and think they are gay since they fall for her(or he...so confusing~~~~)...

Well there are a total of 3 gender benders this season....which is A LOT!!!!but i like this genre since it's always hilarious...not very logical but just plain fun...so here are my reviews on these shows based on 1-2 episodes...

1) Hanazakari no Kimitachi e 2011 (remake)

2011 version

Original 2007 version

So....this is the remake of one of my FAVOURITE japanese dramas...Hanazakari no Kimitachi e (or HANA KIMI)...the original version came out in 2007...which is barely 4 years ago...so i have NO IDEA why they wanted to remake it...but since I was a big fan of it...So I was quite excited for it!!!

Story: So Its about the main girl Ashiya who enters an all boys boarding school (disguised as a boy of cause) to help her idol, high jump pro Sano to restart high jumping again after an incident...and ya, he so happens to be her roommate...

Yes yes i know the story is quite plain and ridiculous but what i LOVED about the show was its humor ,fun and characters...the story is okay-ish...but what make the show good was the jokes and really really funny actors...it's a really good laugh out loud romance youth comedy...nothing to take seriously...

BUT!!!!!!WHAT THE F*** !! THE REMAKE sucks!!!!!!!
1) They used the same sets, background music(yes they just copied the WHOLE soundtrack from the original!!!!), same concepts and its just like a REALLY REALLY bad copy of the original.

2) The main actress
In the original, the actress playing the main character was not really boyish at all,but at least she was kind of convincing plus she CAN ACT!!!!!AND she's naturally funny and lovable

In the remake...the main actress is Maeda Atsuko..which is a member of AKB48...and is REALLY REALLY REALLY BADDDDDD at acting...she is so out in your face a GIRL!!!! she did not even bother to lower her voice at all and sounds super duper high pitch girly...so.not.convincing.....

3) Characters
COPY COPY COPY of the original...all of them are just trying to mimick the original cast and its like akward acting with the characters being so flat and NOT intresting at all.

4) Story
Really really bad....*seriously angry of why the heck they want to remake it and make the story soooooo not true to the manga at all....*

Conclusion: *DROPPED

Ya...Sorry but I really hated this show...It's really like they copied EVERYTHING from the original without changing ANYTHING...and made it really really bad...and I am pretty sure they made this show to make AKB48 more popular (AKB48 is a pop singing idol group with 48 members which is really popular in Japan...and I have no idea why)...the main actress is from AKB48...another 4-5 actresses are also from that group AND the freaking theme song of this show is by ....u guess it...AKB-freaking-48....I am not hating this group but seriously...none of the girls can act...really CAN"T act...and since they are idols...thus they can't make 'ugly funny' faces or actions in their acting....so NOT funny....they are like...just pretty dolls standing there...=_=


2) Ouran Highschool Host Club


Based on a popular manga and anime(which are my favourites)...

Story: It is set in a rich highschool where the main girl is a scholarship student...she broke a vase in the hostclub and is forced to join to repay her debts...oh,and she got mistaken for a boy without her even pretending to be one....

Believe me....the story is WAY better than what I summarised...(I'm too lazy to type it out in detail)...and yet again,what made me love the manga and anime is the characters...the characters are really well written with a real depth in them...plus you get to see them grow throughout the series...

When I heard they were making my favourite gender-bender story into a drama I was really freaked out...excited yes but still really scared they will screw it up REAL bad...but to my surprise...the drama was actually enjoyable and the actors who play the characters are spot on like the manga/anime....so I really was happy with that:D

Sadly each episode is only 30mins!!!!grrrr....but for now the series look promising and it's quite funny~~~

Conclusion: will CONTINUE watching~~~Love it


3) Ikemen Desu ne (remake of korean drama 'you're beautiful')

Japanese Version


Original Korean version

Yes,another freaking remake...but AT LEAST this remake is better than Hana Kimi....but really???this is a COPY & PASTE JAPANESE VERSION of the original....everything is like deja vu...the characters,the music and the acting are IDENTICAL.....

Story: Main girl disguises as a boy to take the place of her twin brother in a popular band

Well,I did like the korean version...It was not THAT good, but it was enjoyable...and I guess they remade it into a japanese version was because the korean version was SUPER DUPER popular in Japan, more so than korea itself...so ya...*chi ching...money money money!!!*

I really am amazed how so alike the two versions are...seriously???Its like rewatching the korean version in japanese...with less handsome main actors...and the story compressed into less than 11 episodes (korean version with 16 episodes)....=_=....ARGHHSSSSS!!!!

Conclusion: uh....CONTINUE for another episode to decide wheather to drop or not...

Tips: IF you want to remake something...PLEASE remake it after the original version was released more than 6 years ago...and PLEASE don't copy the entire soundtrack and just change it into japanese.....and PLEASE make the characters yours actors!!!don't copy and paste EVERYTHING from the original!!!!GAH!!!!!




Verdict:

Most convincing 'I'm a girl pretending to be a boy' actress :
1)Ouran; 2) Ikemen desu ne ; 3) Hana kimi remake

Gender-benders this season are really disappointing...the 2 remakes are just lazy productions with no original or fresh ideas....GaAaAhhh!!!!so sad!!!!!

Stronger

Please let me become stronger...I don't want to depend on anyone anymore~~~shall my new chapter in life bring me courage and strength....I need to be strong....
Let me have that tiny light in me to brighten up everyone's day...including mine

Shows galore!!!

It has been 3weeks since my exam was over...and since then I've been on marathon after marathon and marathons of shows...and I think my ass has melted into the shape of my chair ,my back has taken a slouching position and my eyeballs are getting gooey...sigh...life is good:D

So besides going out and hanging out with kawan-kawan...or pergi main main....oh and sleeping and wasting my time...I've been catching up on my shows....so here are some shows I've been seeing this 3 weeks...

1)49days(korean drama)


ah yes~~~I finished all 20 episodes of this show in 2days...I tried to watch it when it 1st came out...but I just could not get pass the 1st episode(didn't like the acting)...so I dropped it...but lots of my friends from uni highly recommended me this...so since I got time to waste and I wanted to find out what all the hype was about this show...thus I started again.....
and WOW...it is super addicting...I just could not stop watching it and I was quite surprise how smart it is(it is still illogical in some ways but hey...it's a k-drama for god's sake..and it makes more sense than alot of other k-dramas)

The story is kinda complicated but it's basically about the main character who got into an accident just right before her wedding and got into a coma,her soul got kicked out of her body and she had a deal with a scheduler(or angel of death)...which is to collect 3 pure tears shed for her from 3 diff ppl within 49 days...and if she succeeds, she will then get to awake from her coma...if not then death........and then there's ALOT of other rules and stories andcharacters...my summary kinda sounds stupid but trust me, it does make sense when u see the whole drama...haha

It has a really touching story and there is no stupid characters or stupid dragging moments...so yeah,it's one of the best dramas I've seen in a long time...well, that is IF you ignore the ending (yes!!!y must u go ruin the stupid ending writers!!!why must you go all out and use all the k-drama cliches at the LAST EPISODE!!!!grrrr... )but if you just forget about the last episode...then this drama is just AWESOME!!!!

2)CSI:Las Vegas
season 10-11


ahhhh....csi~~~even after so long...you still freaking rock!!!
So I've been a CSI fan (ONLY las vegas...I never liked miami or NY)since their 1st season....and I've followed all the seasons till season 5/6(stopped coz the tv channel showing it changed the timeslot......after that i just lost interest in it...)

yep,so I decided to start seeing it from the latest 2 seasons...well,obviously there is not much story development since most of the original characters are still there(yipee!!!) and the new recruits do make the story a bit more interesting...and hell yeah!!!the cases are still interesting!!!!so yeap...finished both seasons(which is like around 40 eps combined???)...and now starting from WAYYYYY back which is season 8 and 9.

3)Reinoryokusha Odagiri Kyoko no Uso (Japanese drama)


So the story is about a famous tv-psychic-star who is a fake that is only pretending to be a psychic...who solves cases...
hmmm...sounds like a been-there-done-that story right???but still it's really interesting!!!There is not much story in this series...it's basically new cases every episode with a tiny bit of story of the main characters...so ya,its a really light and funny series(I really needed this to be happy after all those CSIs and sad k-dramas....)
Oh,and what makes this series work are the characters!!!they are sooooooo lovable and cute and interesting!!!!!that is what I love about j-dramas...they always do great jobs in making all characters freaking cute and damn funny/comical...i LOVE the main actress...she's really really hilarious~~~~

4)City Hunter (K-drama)


LEE MIN HO!!!LEE MIN HO!!!LEE MIN HO!!!LEE MIN HO!!!....what else can I say???hahaha..
so I started this show because I was really bored and it is like highly recommended by lots of drama websites...and yeah...was hooked after the 2nd episode...
I really don't like spy/serious/revenge/plot-twist/political series...because it is SOOOOOOOO boring for me AND tooooooo serious...I really can't stand shows without humor or a sprinkle of cuteness...but yet I find myself liking this show alot...
so part of the reasons i love it is because of leeminho(like DUH...)...and another part is I love the love story/romance part of it...*swooon*
So far there are only 10episodes out...so its' not finished yet...but so far I kinda like the plot and the characters...but i'm getting really tired of the political/revenge side story...it kind of drags in some parts...but still a good k-drama~~~

so yeah,
there are other shows(hk,taiwan,american,thai,korean,japanese dramas) that i've seen but I see those in bits and pieces...so not going to write about it here...there are too many series that i've dropped..then picked up again...then dropped....me too picky!!!

oh oh...and I've seen SOOOO many movies...(alot of old ones though)...like paul,unknown,rio,rango,pirates,hanna ect ect ect........

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~~~~~~~~~I LOVE ME SHOWS!!!!!

oh,and summer is coming...which means a new batch of japanese dramas, korean dramas and anime are starting soon!!!!woooohooooooooooooooo~~~~~(how I waste my time and life...sigh *shakes head*)

Delayed realization

It's been a LONG semester...and a very very stressful one....
4 days of awful exams are over and done with...and I have never felt so free for so long!!!

It had been study study,stress,guilt,depression,study ,study,sleep deprived,study...for the past 1-2 months non stop...it was quite terrible really...
and the worst part is...right after exam...when i was so super happy happy happy!!!i then had to collect my uni matching results....lets say it was not the result i wanted...

I just had a very near vision of my future (which was not a good vision)IF i went to this uni and i felt so freaking depress...no one i really knew was going to this same uni as me and it was just so depressing....it was terrible...plus it was the only uni that had an exam RIGHT AFTER you freaking go there!!!!and if you fail they will kick u out....like wow...tats just too much right after my exams and during my crazy hormone period...stress+stress+shocking news= total depressed breakdown....

yes its stupid...really...to get sad over this kind of thing...even now i think i was just immature ...coz once i calmed down and start focusing on the benefits of going to this uni...it was actually really good...

Its a really good uni...even ranked super high...and its really pretty and have great student support...plus its really close to my brother's place so thats awesome...so actually,its a good thing really....it really is great...so ya,now i'm really excited really:)

Well,everything does happen for a reason...sometimes life just throws you into something that you NEVER want...but in the end it will turn out even better than what you expected....so ya, just go with the flow i guess...

happy holidays....weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Stress but fun???i'm going crazy...

Sigh....I now REALLY know what is SEM 5!!!!!gasp gasp gasp
Everyday is study study study(or TRYING to study that is)...
Not only i must finish sem 5 notes...but sem 3 and 4's too...which means that is ALOT to study...and i could not find the time to revise my sem 3s and 4s...coz sem 5's stuff is CRAZY hard...what the hell!!!!!!gasp gasp gasp

But...eventhough its stressful,but it's an enjoyable sem...coz i stay in uni more (to TRY and study) and theres alot of time to just hang with my awesome batch mates, study with them...and face the challenges together.....its really great!!!..i'm so going to miss all of them la...really great ppl to hang with!!!!!

one more month till my summative and 2 weeks after that is the KILLER FINAL EXAM!!!!!!!!!ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....

ME109!!!!fighting!!!!weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

well,time to 'study'

just an update

Hi blog!!!how i ignored you...I am so sorry~~~
There has been ALOT of things that happended...and Sadly i was too lazy to blog about it....(espeacially after my last post which i wanted to blog about suddenly got deleted before i published it...was so pissed that i didn't want to blog after that...)

well...I really have nothing to say actually...just suddenly felt EMO today when I feel that I'm too soft and nice to voice out my opinion....felt used and ignored...ah...must be the hormones~~~

so yeah...will update soon after I stop perasan and EMO...

to make this blog entry seem more Happy...heres some pictures that will brighten up ur day(and hopefully mine)~~~