I've never been so scared in my life
In a shitty situation with shitty feelings...
what if things don't turn out well
what if I'm just too weak to carry on and screw all of it up
...
What am I to do...when my best was not enough...and now I need to push myself even further...
When every moment I swear to myself how useless I am...and blame myself for not being good enough...
I'm so tired...really very very tired....
I want to give all of it up...
and just sleep for one night without any worries...
What should I do....I . don't. know.
